I’m sure I have written similar in the past, but in the past year, I’ve been feeling especially vulnerable when it comes to sharing online. This has not only impacted the blog, but also my social media pages, where I used to feel comfortable sharing life updates, details about my day, and random thoughts I had at the time.

Aside from being pregnant and the anxiety that comes along with that (lots btw!), I haven’t wanted to post even about what I’ve been up to, which is part of the joy of blogging for me. I love the old school style of blog, where I just share my life and hope that it is somehow relatable or cathartic to read (or even just for me to write).

During pregnancy, I’ve been worried about sharing updates in case of any issues that arose. While I have had a few health concerns and felt very uncomfortable physically at times, my pregnancy has mostly been okay (sorry to everyone who has listened to me moan every single day along the way!), and I am so grateful to be near the point where we meet our baby!

Part of my online avoidance has been due to managing symptoms, but mostly it has been avoiding emotional situations and just feeling awkward. The things that have been on my mind have been deeply personal and would have impacted other people, so I took a step back from sharing anything at all in fear of oversharing, backlash, and unnecessary upset. However, while doing so, I neglected my own emotional outlet, which is to be creative or write.

I have had an unbelievable amount of emotional stress put on me from various people and situations in the past 9 months, and stepping back from all of that meant stepping back from being present, being vulnerable, and from saying how I feel. Which is the only way I know how to share, because transparency has always been the way I operate.

I’m usually an open book, but I’ve been feeling in the spotlight for all the wrong reasons, and while that is enough of an emotional burden, I also had the toll of pregnancy symptoms and heightened emotions to deal with on that front. Access to me and any information regarding what I’m up to at this time has felt too much, and so I shut down instead.

It’s been a lot.

However, I know the only way for me to build myself back up is to confidently show up in a way that feels right for me.

Overthinking is usually my biggest barrier, and it’s shown up again here. My favourite posts are the ones where I write freely, from the heart. No checking on ChatGPT if I’ve said anything wrong or if the layout works. No wondering what others will think. No worrying that what’s on my mind will relate too heavily to my real life.

I’m hoping I don’t write another post like this for a while. And that if I do disappear, it’s because I’m having too much of a good time! I have a baby on the way and so many amazing things to look forward to. I want to share those moments and memories, and keep taking people along for the ride, as always, sharing ways in which I make everyday life more extraordinary!

Now to hit publish and cringe! How did I used to do this so often?